Illusions ?

2010-08-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

Dear God , I'm Really Tired.. God Please Help Me..
I Really Need Your Help.. I'm Breaking Down..
sales Has Been Bad Recently REALLY BAD
Thanks God For The Past Sales..

God I Need Your Help

2010-06-05T19:56:00.001-07:00

Thank God So Much For Yesterday Performance

7 Net Books!

4 Fujitsu 1 HP , 1 Samsung And 1 Acer!!

Love You God

2010-06-04T20:21:00.000-07:00

Sorry God , I've Failed To Praise You Everyday And Yet You Shower Me With Lots Of Love And Blessings...

Thank God For Today
Thank God For Yesterday
Thank God For Tml
Thank God For N61 Yesterday
Thank God For Laptop Sales Today
Thank God For Amanda =)

2010-05-25T02:34:00.001-07:00

God , Sales Been Really Bad In Unit 14... 1stly Thank You For Amanda Baby , Shes Back You Answered My Prayer =)
God , Now I Pray That She Will Stay , NOw God I Too Wanna Pray About Sales For 14 ...
Help Me Guide Me Walk With Me God =)

2010-05-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

Sorry God Haven Been Bloggin For Very very long

Anyway Thank God For Alot Of Things Lots Of Acer , Fujitsu

Mainly A42 , K40 , 3810 , Sh560!!

2010-04-20T09:42:00.001-07:00

Thank God For LGx130

2010-04-14T20:42:00.000-07:00

Thank God For 3810TG With Professional And Microsoft Office Standard + Ul20A ! =)

God I'm Feeling Quite Down Recently Isit Because I Really Love Her And I Want Her By My Side 24/7? I Dont Know God Please Help Me..

2010-04-11T09:02:00.000-07:00

Thank God So So So Much For 2 T280 , 1 R490 And Lastly A Hp Mini

God You Answered My Prayer Thank You

2010-04-10T21:34:00.000-07:00

thank god For X130 And Samsung N150

God I'm Afraid Of Loosing Her
God I'm Afraid Of My Sales
God Help Me

2010-04-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

Thank God For Lh530 , Lh700 , HP Mini And Erm .. Forget What Isit Nvm Will Check Once I'm Home!!

Sorry God! , Long Time Nvr Thank You For Things !! Kinda Busy
Anw Thank God For AMANDA ONG!! <3

2010-03-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

Thank God For UH900

God , I've Done Something Bad Today

I've Broke The IWC Watch I Feel Very Bad God

Help me..

Amen

2010-03-20T20:26:00.003-07:00

Sorry God , Anw Thank God For Asus Ul20A12 , Fujitsu S6520 And A HP Dv3

2010-03-16T20:22:00.000-07:00

Thank God For The IT Show , Even Thou I'm Unable To Hit My Target But Its Okie =)
Thank God For M2010 Too

Dear God ,
I'm Really Feeling Empty And Tired And Kinda Lost
Please Guide Me Of What To Do . I'll Leave My Life With You
Lead Me With Wisdom And Knowledge Do Not Put Me Into Temptations.
Fame And Name Is Not I Ask But Peace And Quite Is All I asked

Amen

2010-03-08T09:07:00.000-08:00

Thank You God For K40Ie And Of Course Acer E machine!! =)

Amen

2010-03-06T09:14:00.000-08:00

Thank God For S6520 And S6420 .. And For yesterday Thank God For 1 Asus I5 , 2 Asus I3 And 1 A0532

God , As The IT Show Is Nearing

I Leave My Sales On You

I Trust You , Lead Me With Wisdom And Patience

So I Could Withstand All Problems That Is Put To Me

Tml Is My Training , I Wish It Would Be A Huge Sucess And Give Me Courage To Lead

For I'm Your Son ..Grant Me Wisdom And Patience To Teach My Part Timers

And Father , Let Me Be Humble .

All This I Pray In Jesus Name

Amen!

2010-03-04T10:01:00.000-08:00

Thank God For 2 X LH530

John's Sales

Thank God..

Amen

2010-03-03T20:51:00.001-08:00

Thank God For My Returning Customers For A Acer And 3 Compaq Cq40-617TX , And 2 N150Samsung And Yesterday 1 N150! =)

Today I Gonna Leave My Sales To You!

2010-03-01T19:37:00.001-08:00

Thank God For A42JR I5 =)

Dear God , I'm Leaving My March's Sales To You!
I Trust You God.

Amen

2010-02-26T21:15:00.000-08:00

God!
I'm Kinda Stressed With Being Asus In-Charge , I Need Your Guidance And Of Course Your Blessing And Wisdom , Bless With Me Courage And Strength So That I Would Withstand All Trouble That Is Post To Me , Deliver Me From All Evils Amen!

AMen!

2010-02-26T21:13:00.000-08:00

Thank God For My Pay !!!

Amen Amen!
743.50! Not Counting COMMISION!

Oh Yar! Forget Thank God For 6420 ! And Another 6420!! =)
=)

2010-02-23T02:34:00.000-08:00

Thank God For S6420 , Vista Ultimate , 8GB Ram Upgrade And P6290 Desktop! And A A42JR , r480

Amen!
Dear God, I really hope and wish and pray that i'll be the Top sales person this month .. =)

AMEN!

2010-02-19T00:39:00.001-08:00

Thank God So So So So So So Much For Lh700 With 8GB Ram Upgrade!! =) haha

Amen

2010-02-18T19:09:00.001-08:00

Sorry God , Anyway Thank God Yesterday For A R480 , Eee Pc X2 !! =)

Love Ya

2010-02-17T19:04:00.001-08:00

Dear God! I'm So Stressed !
I'll Leave Today All Up To You God! =)

Amen

2010-02-16T20:27:00.001-08:00

Thank God For Yesterday! =) Amen!!

And Of Course Thank God For Today

2010-02-16T03:02:00.000-08:00

Thank God For UH900 , L1010 And Acer I3 4748 ! =)

Love you God!

2010-02-14T08:34:00.000-08:00

Thank You God For New Year , Thank You Good For The Ang Baos!

Thank You God For WINNINGS ! *wahahah* And Of Course Thank You God For Meng Meng

2010-02-13T07:59:00.001-08:00

Thank God For LH700! =) And Of Course Lots Of Accessories ( MS Office , Rams , Victorianox )

2010-02-11T19:46:00.001-08:00

Sorry God Anway Thank God Yesterday For HP Mini , And 2 P3110!! Thank God!!

Amen

2010-02-08T23:47:00.000-08:00

Thank God For Today! I'll Leave Today All To You God!
Amen

2010-02-08T07:15:00.000-08:00

OH GOD I'M SO SO SO BLESSED!

Thank You God SO SO SO MUCH For Acer I3 ( 1198 ) x 2 And HP DV 4!! Of Course EL1833 Emachine

2010-02-07T19:49:00.001-08:00

Its Monday And I'm Late For Work !
Alone In Shop Now
Anyway Changed Baby's Boot
And Changed Tires
Picture Speaks A Thousand Word!

2010-02-07T19:09:00.000-08:00

Late Today! :(
But Nvm! God Made Things Happen For A Reason , Gotta Trust In Him
Anw Thank God For Yesterday's Last Min HP Mini!

Amen!

Even Thou Today Is Monday Which Is Claimed To Be Not As Good Selling As Sat And Sun , I Trust God Will Lead Me Thru

2010-02-07T01:55:00.000-08:00

Thank God For KE40 And Another R480!!

*Opps And Yea N150! *

2010-02-06T19:41:00.001-08:00

I'm So Sorry God =(
Unable To Wake Up Too Tired
I'll See You Next Week!!

2010-02-06T19:41:00.000-08:00

I'm So Sorry God =(
Unable To Wake Up Too Tired
I'll See You Next Week!!

2010-02-06T19:16:00.001-08:00

Thank God For Samsung R480

2010-02-06T00:54:00.000-08:00

WoooHoo Thank God For G51J ! And LG R480!!!

$50 Bucks Spiff ! + $15 Bucks Spiff !

I'm SO BLESSED

Amen!

2010-02-05T10:56:00.001-08:00

Thank God For 4740!!

Amen!

2010-02-03T05:46:00.000-08:00

Thank God For UL80 & 6421

AMEN!

2010-02-02T08:11:00.001-08:00

Thank God For The DV-4 And 6420 !!!

AMEN

2010-02-01T06:18:00.000-08:00

Man , I Need Assets NOT LIABILITY!

Assets = Income

Liability = Expenses

Where Shall I Start , Hmm..

2010-01-29T23:23:00.001-08:00

Oh Yea , Selling of My Car

Subaru Imprezza WRX

Anyone Intrested? Pictures Will Be Up Soon

Whats Next For Me?

Nissan 200SX S13 !!

2010-01-29T22:58:00.000-08:00

Looks Like She's Been Well
Next Trip USA?
Oh Well Have Fun Then..

Next Trip For Me , Taiwan
Wanna Invite Her To Thailand With Me Will She Go With Me? *Hmm I Wonder*

2010-01-28T05:18:00.000-08:00

Prada Specs - $800

Burberry Wallet - $500

LV Bag -$2500

IWC Watch - $28000

Aldo Shoes - $350

Grand Total : $32000++

God I've Been Spending A Lil Bit Too Much Havent I?

Gotten Baby A Carbon Fibre Hood

Next Turbo Kit!

Oh Yea

Hans , You Can Fucking Fuck Off And Die

2010-01-25T19:43:00.000-08:00

After Thinking Of Things Throughly

I Came To My Senses Rowena Is Just A Replacement

Nothing Else

She's Just Someone That I Thought Could Replace Her , But Row's Nothing Compared To Her

I Found Out That I Have 0 Feelings For Row , Pratically

Theres No One Who Could Replace Her Yet..

Looking At Those Post Cards You Wrote Before You Left

Those Guilt , Those Sadness , Those Promise

Will You Be Back Again For Me To Make Everything Up To You?

Chia Ying.

2010-01-25T02:04:00.000-08:00

Bro , How Does Knowing Your Girl Accepted A Corset Give From Me Feel?

Do You Know Things When You're Not Here?

I Guess Not

Joke...

Lol Found Out You Deleted Me From Facebook , Cant Accept Facts?

Lol How Sad

2010-01-22T21:42:00.000-08:00

What Is It?

If I Tear Open Your Chest Will I See It Inside?

If I Shatter Your Skull Will I See It There?

2010-01-22T19:59:00.000-08:00

After Everything ,

I Know I Should Get You Out Of My Life ..

2010-01-21T04:29:00.000-08:00

Photoshoot With Chloe Soon !

Theme: Kinky

Venue:REHotel

More To Be Up

When The Time Comes , I'll Stand Strong.

And I Won't Fall This Time

2010-01-17T00:53:00.000-08:00

I Found Out I'm Able To Live Without You Rowena

So There For! I'm Not Looking Back Anymore!! =)

Firstly I Have To Thank You For Making Me Realize That This World Do Not Trust Anyone Other Than Yourself

Secondly , I Would Like To Thank You For Molding Me To Someone Stronger Now

Thanks

2010-01-15T04:35:00.000-08:00

Just Got Back My Ride!

Yea Awesome Love The Sound , Interior And Of Course The Car.

Gonna Get A Carbon Fibre Boot When I Get My Pay.

Thought I Could Surprise Her With This But Oh Well Not Fated..

10 Years Down The Road , I'll Be Looking Back At Today And Say..

Does It Matter?

2010-01-14T06:20:00.000-08:00

You Left Me

And Gave Me Shit

Babe?

Salt?

Lies

2010-01-12T04:50:00.001-08:00

Rowena Tans Owe Me 700 Dollars

She Cheated Me To Help Her

Then She Ran Away..

Lied To Me About Stuff

And Ran Away

Sigh Now Dont even Dare To Pick up , Usually She's So Daring , Now Why? Dont Dare Play?

2010-01-10T21:05:00.000-08:00

You're Nothing

Go On Keep Dreaming And One Day You'll Bang The Wall

Don't Cry After That

Because You Deserve It

2010-01-10T01:37:00.000-08:00

Theres No More ILlusions Have You Realised?

2010-01-09T14:05:00.000-08:00

Somehow , I Dont Know

Things Are Diffrent Again..

2010-01-09T01:34:00.000-08:00

I'm Tired

I'm Literally Am..

I'm Tired Of Misunderstanding

I'm Tired Of Accusing

I'm Tired Of Everything

Really Babe , I'm Tired

2010-01-08T09:05:00.001-08:00

Fuck Misunderstanding

Fuck Everytime When I'm Trying To Do Something Nice I'm Fuck By It

Fuck ,It's Never Enough To You

Fuck All The Shit

2010-01-04T03:50:00.000-08:00

Somehow I Beginning To Forget You

Images Of You Are Fading

I Use To Live For You ..

Now I Could Live Without You...

Your Image Is Fading

My Heart Is Dying

2010-01-02T09:44:00.000-08:00

Lol , I Spit On Perfects

I LOL At your Life Right Now

2010-01-01T23:15:00.001-08:00

When Will You WAKE UP ?

2010-01-01T09:06:00.001-08:00

A Painful Piano Piece

2009-12-31T15:58:00.000-08:00

2010 ,

Nothing New

Nothing Changed

I've Learned A Lot This Year..I Learned That Things Don't Always Turn Out The Way You Planned, Or The Way You Think They Should. And I've Learned That There Are Things That Go Wrong That Don't Always Get Fixed Or Get Put Back Together The Way They Were Before. I've Learned That Some Broken Things Stay Broken.

I've Learned So Much

2009-12-30T22:10:00.000-08:00

Its New Year Eve , Where Are You? Where Is He?

She's Always Been Running Away From Facts

I Would Argue

Then You Would Cry

As You're Struggling, I Would Only Get Stronger

My Heartaches Behind These Shadows

My Face Brightens Up As I See Your Smile

I Worry That You Might Notice My Feelings

And I Get Scared That The Gap Between Us Would Widen

I Hold My Breath

Then I Bite My Lips

Baby~

You, Who Never Understood My Feelings

Because Of That, I Ended Up Despising You

Then I Wished A Misfortune Upon You

But Now, My Eyes Are Dry

Now I Am Talking To Myself, It Must Be An Old Habbit

Every Night I Would Look At Myself

And Wonder How It Turned Out Like This

I Would Close My Eyes

By All Means ,Be Happy With Him

So I Can Move On

Please Erase Me Out Of Your Heart

Although I Tried My Best But , No..

Once The Music Ends , You'll Be With Him Forever

I Prayed And Prayed That This Day Wouldn't Come

I've Been Living In Lies For Too Long

2009-12-29T09:05:00.001-08:00

Think About It Girl

2009-12-27T09:28:00.001-08:00

Lets See...

Fuck Those People That Come To Me For Favours

As I Fucked Their Mum

2009-12-27T01:54:00.001-08:00

I relinquish the ownership of my immortal soul into the keeping of Satan, the Master of Evil Demons, Commander of all Ungodly Forces and Unclean Spirits, Inventor of the Sin, Eater of Souls, and Chief Torturer of all dead Heathens and Damned Christians. I furthermore give to him and his subservient creatures the rights and privileges and freedoms entitled to me by the Creator of the Universe, whose name I flout. I understand fully that I will live as a creature of sin and an artist of villainy and corruption in this world, and become a slave of evil in the next; property of the diabolic in both. I shall spurn and debase all things worthy and pure, and I shall make ruin my cause and calling. I shall indulge in joyous cruelties from the pettiest to the most maleficent. I swear that I shall curse the names of all the angels of the host of heaven; and with the aid of my Liege, they shall hear me and be tormented thereby. I shall endeveor to commit all kinds of sin and crimes against the Enemy-who-yet-rules, succeed and blacken the soul of the earth. I am a blasphemy. I am one accursed. I am among the host of the damned.

This Pact, binds me to the Eternal Darkness that is Satan in a manner as irrevocable as his fall into the realms of perdition. There, with my new master, I shall remain in torment and unforgiven until the end of the world.

In return for this sacrifice and for my denial of all that is good and redeeming, I will possess money in substantial quantities, the fulfillment of all of my lusts, and the destruction and degradation of all that opposes my whims. I shall overcome with blackness, succeed in monstrosity, vindicate all scorn, by breaking the Whole. In return for the additional corruption of other people, for every one damned and dead that I am responsible for directly, I shall have my life prolonged in health for another two years and a day.

I fully understand the consequences of the signing of this most unholy pact; I proceed willfully, cognizant of my coming privileges and debts. I furthermore promise to fulfill my debt punctually and without resistance, nor will I pray nor plead for my soul in any way, nor attempt to have others plead in my behalf. I confirm this in this covenant more tightly knit than the bonds of life and death. May the Prince of Darkness take pleasure in my gift and my betrayal, and use such to spread his reign further throughout the phenomenal world by annihilating the spiritual.

Let My Killing Begins

2009-12-26T21:33:00.001-08:00

My Life Is Crashing Down..

Family Falling Apart

Shit Happening

Friends Leaving When I Needed Them

Dear God ,

The Only Thing I Ask Is For You Is To Hold Her When I'm Not Around

When I'm Much Too Far Away..

Sometimes I Really Want To End Things

But I Held On..

2009-12-26T07:16:00.001-08:00

Awhile Say This Awhile Say That...

When I'm Trying To Treat You Nice ,You Use All Sorts Of Ways To Get Back At Me

Sigh

2009-12-26T03:25:00.000-08:00

I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit backand wonder how one person could have caused all of this.

Thanks Dear
For Writing This Even Before You Died

2009-12-25T23:13:00.001-08:00

So This Is Fair? I'm Sorry Is All I Get And Nothing
Thank You Is All I Get After Everything

Imagine If We Swap Places How You Feel

2009-12-25T10:27:00.001-08:00

Who Am I To You?

2009-12-23T19:04:00.001-08:00

Dont Wanna Be Here Then Fuck Off To Where You Wanna Go..
If Everything Is So Hard Then Leave .
You've Changed To Someone I Dont Even Know Anymore..

2009-12-22T03:49:00.003-08:00

Damn Linkin Park Songs Really Fit My Life And What I Want To Really Say.

"Points Of Authority"

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
And puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken

[Chorus:]
You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what you've learned)
You want to share what you have been through
(You live what you've learned)

You love the things I say I'll do
The way I hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life
My pride is broken

[Chorus]

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
And puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

[Chorus]

[Chorus:]
You like to think you're never wrong – Forfeit the game
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're someone – Forfeit the game
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to hurt like you – Forfeit the game
(You live what you've learned)
You want to share what you have been through
(You live what you've learned)

2009-12-21T16:26:00.000-08:00

I'm Never A Part Of You Anyways..

You Were Never Once Beside Me . It's Just An ILlusion

I'm Just Something Extra , No Point Making Someone The Priority And Someone Makes You Their Shit

2009-12-21T03:38:00.001-08:00

"I Dont Need You , I Dont Want You"

This Words

Will Be Carved Into My Heart

Never Again Will I Open Up Anymore To Anyone

Because Once I Open Up Again . Hurt Is What I Get
And Nothing Else.

"Treat Someone The Way You Want Them To Treat You"

This Words Are Running Thru My Head

I've Given My Best

And This Is How I Am Being Treated

Words

Are Just Words

2009-12-21T03:15:00.000-08:00

Gotten Bored , Went To Town And Bugis Area For Some Photos

Sometimes Bus Journey As So Much Better Than Cars

But Not All Cars Are Bad Either Like This One

Nothing Much To Say , I Sure Need Someone To Be My Photography Side Kick!!

If Just That Chia Ying Was With Me ..

I Wouldn't Be What I've Become Now

If Theres Just Someone That Treat Me Better :)

Mahjong Soon!

2009-12-20T20:42:00.001-08:00

Everything Changes

I Helped And This Is What I Get

2009-12-20T03:54:00.001-08:00

Rowena , Sugar , Babe ..

This Song Just Fits Me So Much

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

2009-12-19T23:01:00.000-08:00

After Everything I Helped You

You Just Left

This Is How You Treat Someone That Helped You?

Without Any Thing

Its Just A Misunderstanding

We've Agreed On So Many Things And Yet Things You Just Left..

Be Strong Babe ,

After Everything Bring Yourself Up And Smile

I'll Do The Same Too

Study Hard And Party Hard.

Take Care When I'm Gone

Signing Off For The Last Time Aint Blogging Anymore Too Much Bad Memories

Salt

2009-12-18T23:47:00.000-08:00

I Wonder How Much I Meant To You

Every Single Time , You Said I Mean Alot As A Close Friend

But How Much Is Alot?

How Much Do I Mean?

When We Get Into Problems You Can Pretend Nothing Happened?

I Seriously Don't Know Anymore

2009-12-18T17:28:00.001-08:00

Ever Tried Get Caught Up In A Fight And Nearly Killed Somone?

Ever Tried Hitting Someone In The Face Till Your Hand Got Bloody?

Ever Tried Being So Mad That Your Friends Has To Practically Drag You Away?

On 18 Dec 2Am I Did...

2009-12-18T03:48:00.000-08:00

IF Things Are So Hard
Forget It
No Point Holding On

Today's Fucked Up
Really Fuck My Life

2009-12-17T07:20:00.000-08:00

Lol Sounds So Familiar To My Life

Not All But Some Part!

Before the story begins, is it such a sin,
for me to take what's mine, until the end of time
We were more than friends, before the story ends,
And I will take what's mine, create what
God would never design

Our love had been so strong for far too long,
I was weak with fear that
something would go wrong,
before the possibilities came true,
I took all possibility from you
Almost laughed myself to tears,
conjuring her deepest fears

Must have stabbed her fifty fucking times,
I can't believe it,
Ripped her heart out right before her eyes,
Eyes over easy, eat it eat it eat it

She was never this good in bed
even when she was sleepin'
now she's just so perfect I've
never been quite so fucking deep in
it goes on and on and on,
I can keep you lookin' young and preserved forever,
with a fountain to spray on your youth whenever

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
let's make a new start
’cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
but baby don't cry

Now possibilities I'd never considered,
are occurring the likes of which I'd never heard,
Now an angry soul comes back from beyond the grave,
to repossess a body with which I'd misbehaved

Smiling right from ear to ear
Almost laughed herself to tears

Must have stabbed him fifty fucking times
I can't believe it
Ripped his heart out right before his eyes
Eyes over easy
Eat it eat it eat it

Now that it's done I realize the error of my ways
I must venture back to apologize from somewhere far beyond the grave

I gotta make up for what I've done
’Cause I was all up in a piece of heaven
while you burned in hell, no peace forever

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
Let’s make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
But baby don't cry

I will suffer for so long
(What will you do, not long enough)
To make it up to you
(I pray to God that you do)
I'll do whatever you want me to do
(Well then I’ll break you unchained)
And if it's not enough
(If it’s not enough, If it’s not enough)
If it's not enough
(Not enough)
Try again
(Try again)
And again
(And again)
Over and over again

We’re coming back, coming back
We’ll live forever, live forever
Let’s have wedding, have a wedding
Let’s start the killing, start the killing

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
And a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
Let’s make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
But baby don't cry

2009-12-16T16:18:00.001-08:00

"NO,Just Dont Keep It Then"

So Much For Your Friendship Girl

This Is How You Treasure A Friendship?

This Is How You Treat Someone That Once Gave You All?

This Is How You Fuck Someone Off...

Today I Know , Today I See And Today I Understand

If A Friend Treasure This Friendship , Those Words Are Not From Someone Who Treasure Friendship

Ok Fine , If You Want Me To Leave So Badly I Will...

Today On 17Th Dec. You Told Me To Leave..Never Regret Your Decision As I've Thought Of It Already .

Once More You Fuck Me Off , I'm Off..

I Ain't Your Puppy That Comes Back After You Fuck Me Off Again And Again

All Those Words I'll Take It With Me

Dont Regret This Rowena Tan

And Yes I'm Talking To You

2009-12-16T04:23:00.000-08:00

Bali Was ...

STEADY LA!

Shop Shop Shop With Jo Jo

Bought A Boxer For Me! *Awwww*

KUTA!

Lots Of Pic Taken But Simply Love This One

Nothing Behind This And Yes Its Me And Jo Jo

Nothing Between Us Just Fucking Close Friend

She Agreed To Help Me With This Shot So Yea

Day 1:

Reach The Resort Around In The Morning

Drop Our Stuff And Go Rent A Car!

Rented This:

Bali Traffic Was Well .. FUN!

Row Didn't Believe I Could Drive In Indo?

Man She Was So Wrong About Stuff

Went For Shopping Not Much Picture Taken

Just Lots Of Pulling By Jo Jo Nearly Drop My Camera ( Damn That Bitch )

Just Had Our Dinner In The Resort

Oh Did I Mention Our Resort?

St Regis Bali Resort?

Living Like A King Eh?

Okie More To Come Tml!

Clubbing Tonight With JoJo! Sex And Drugs And House!!

Left My Phone With Jo Jo Mum

And She Complain Mid Night Someone Called

'R' Was The Name

After That Sent A Message

Oh Well Friends Don't Doubt Don't They?

Oh Well I Did Once But Well I'm A New Me!

Thanks Jo Jo For Last Night Talk On The Plane

I Had My Wrong Doings And Yea I'm Sorry About It

Right Now I'm Thinking

Should I Keep It Or Not

I Need Friend That Don't Doubt And Say 1 Thing Do Another

All Those Words She Once Told Me Never Once Came True

And Things Are So Coincidently Happen That Everytime It Fucked Up

So Frequent It Feels Like A Made Out Plan..

Shall Not Assume Shall Not Point Fingers

IF Its True , I Don't Need A Friend Like This

If Its Isn't Then Thanks

CIAO

2009-12-15T06:13:00.000-08:00

Off To Bali!

FREEDOM At Last God Damn It!

Gotta Enjoy With Jo Jo Hopefully She Helps With My Port Folio This Time

Well This Trip Was Suppose To Be With Her

But Guess Its Down The Drain

Shant Say Much

Good Bye Mother Fuckers

Dont Miss Me!

2009-12-14T15:56:00.000-08:00

"Babe You're Important "

"Salt , I Treasure This Friendship Ok?"

"You Mean Alot To Me Babe , Dont Leave"

So Much For It , When You Can Just Say Forget It

Then Dont Say All This In The 1st Place

After Everything Its Just Help That You Needed And You Found Me , Now You've Found Help

You Fuck Me Off

I'm Dissapointed

2009-12-13T05:21:00.000-08:00

On A Night When We Cant Even See The Moon

I Opened My Eyes And Found Myself Alone

Curled Up On The Corner Of My Bed

When I Think Of You I Just Can't Sleep, I Get Lost

You're By My Side At Night , Loving Me Sweetly

But When I Say "Why Do You Love Me?"

I Always Wake Up

It Makes Me Sad That I'm Not The One

The One That Is Most Important To You

But I'm Definetly The One

The One Who Knows What's Most

Important To You, Right?

I Grasp It Tightly In My Hands

That Little Belief Of Mine

So Tightly That My Favorite Ring Hurts Me

Because I Want To Feel You Near Me

My Most Important Person

I Cant Sleep Tonight, And You're Not Here

Maybe I Should Make Some Hot Milk

2009-12-13T04:19:00.000-08:00

I Guess Somethings Have To Go

I Could Be Your Angel And Never You're Friend

The Past Is Just An ILlusion

To Row:

Here Are Some Lyrics I Took From A Song And I Feel That I Meant Something

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

I'll face myself

To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done
Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty

For what I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends

So Yea Today This Ends

2009-12-12T17:03:00.000-08:00

I'm Back In The Hotel Room

Sadly Alone..

When I Was Alone Outside The Zouk Out Entrance

This Girl Was Walking Towards Me Kinda Interviewed Me

She Asked : "Hey So How Was Zoukout 2009?"

I Stood There Silent , Thinking Of Stuff..

And Walk Off Silently

Today I've Lost Many Things And Gain Something

I've Lost Myself..

I Didnt Manage To Submit My Portfolio , Guess Have To Wait For The Next In-Take Agian

Its Alright..I Guess..

Missed This Chance

I Might Not Be Who I Am Before , I'll Make It A Effort To Be Better

I Know I'll Be

I Just Want Us To Be Back To Who We Were

I Want To Be There For You

To Care , To Love To Share

Not To Hurt , To Threaten And To Assume

Can We?

Will We?

I'm Not Illusion Anymore , Dont Call Me That.. I'm Jonathan Now

2009-12-10T20:47:00.000-08:00

Lol Using Internet Blogging And Facebooking And Lastly MSNING
In Singapore Camp How Fucking Cool Is That ..

=)

Treasure Your Last Chance

2009-12-10T04:54:00.000-08:00

Free Tickets! Zouk Out This Coming Sat..

Some People Shoud Be Kept As Friends

And Those Who Take You For Granted Well They Should Jolly Well Be Fucked Off From Your Life!

2009-12-09T05:56:00.000-08:00

Deleting This Blog Soon , I'm Leaving

I'll Miss You

I'll Miss The Time

But We'll Not Be Back To Normal Already So Yea

I Love You

2009-12-08T06:31:00.001-08:00

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

[Pre-Chorus:]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

For what I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!!

[Chorus]

What I’ve done
Forgiving what I’ve done

2009-12-07T07:47:00.001-08:00

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in again
They need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?

I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense

Spinning infinity
Boy, the wheel is spinning me
It's never ending, never ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

In time or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale, oh well
The page is out of print, we are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face, mirrorin' your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right, I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that'll take you down, bring you to your knees
So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you? Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark, you know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say you're not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Hooked Up To This New Song

Thanks Ade For Being There For Me When i Needed Someone =)

2009-12-06T09:15:00.000-08:00

He's A Lucky Bastard Who She Choose To Be With Than Me

Her Feelings Faded,

I'm Broken

Utterly Broken From The Core

I'll Never Be Who I Am Before Already

I've Lost Everything.

Whats The Point Of Anything Right Now..

Love Is Patience

Love Is Trust

Love Is Forgiving

Love Is Painful

Guess I'm Forgotten..

Maybe I'm Just An Illusion To You

2009-12-06T07:25:00.001-08:00

Its Working Time!

Hopefully Things Will Go Well I hope

I'm Starting To Miss Those Time..

Guess It Will Not Be Back Anytime Soon

2009-12-06T00:41:00.000-08:00

There Are So Many Things We Promised

I Hope You Still Keep Them ..

We Promised To Be By Each Other Side

We Promised To Be Friends Forever

We Promised That No Matter What You'll Still Be My Babe

We Promised That Even When Things Fall Apart We'll Still Patch It Back Up

We Promised ..

Can You Keep This Promise Together With Me? Row?